And the result is....negative

Well...it was good while it lasted but I did not succeed in getting the cooks assistant position. Whats next? Im kinda torn because I have no where to turn yet no matter what I do I cant succeed at finding work. If I had money saved up then cool ok I can survive a while, but I have nothing therefore every day is a loss. I just dont know what else to do to speed up this process.

On the other hand this opens up the doors to go back to camp for another summer which is something that I really want to do. I have been thinking and prayiong about it sunce the fall and I really feel called back its just a matter of once again having money for that. I know...money for camp? Unfortunately there are some things that I would still have to pay for like a sponsor child, a storage locker, a cell bill, and rent here in edmonton...so there are quite a few things that I will have to keep up finantially. So I would like to ask for prayer on this decision and for the fact that I do need to find work soon in order to survive. I cant rely on my father anymore...its to much of a burdin on him and makes me feel really bad about how unsuccessful I have been all of this year.

Other than that nothing is new...I spend all of my days laying on the couch watching TV and job searching on the internet since I dont have a car to go out on a daily basis. OOh...this week I did see malayne! It was really good to hang out with someone from kaleo again and really miss getting to see everyone and even talking to them. It's very rare that someone has the time to chat for more than 3 to 5 min. And I also went to missions fest and saw Mel and Ken which was really good. Other than that nothing is new. Hope everyone has a good week and I will update again.

A New Beginning....Once Again

Ok...so I decided to restart my blog in a hopes that this will be a way of expressing myself to the right people. I left my blog in the summer time cause i was very bad at updating it and it became more of a chore then fun. But it's time for me to start again. I am not going to recap my fall becaise its done and I dont want to go back to it not even through memory. It was a rough road and I did not come out shining...I came out as a failure and have been working on rebuilding myself again. Thats a lot easier said then done. I am working right now on getting back into the word and praying. Praying is something that I have always struggled with. Praying out loud scares the poo outta me and praying alone has gotten to the point where its awkward. And I dont like feeling weird when I pray so Im working on fighting that.

My move to edmonton was very good. I love St Albert so far and plan on staying here for a few years....then again, God may have other plans. I am still looking for work but have a really good lead on a cooks assistant job for Meals on Wheels. I am very excited to start work again and would like prayer that I will shine in my interview and get this job. I know it will be good and it will really challenge my leadership skills which is something that I really want. I am so excited to see what comes out of this and am ready for the challenge.

Though I am still in a rough place spiritually and with a lot of my friends I want to be sure that I trust God with that. That he knows what im going through and that he will soon show me the light at the end of the tunnel. Thats about all I can say right now.

Here is the most recent pict of me. Bye for now!