Jr Hi #2

What a week...full of fun and smiles and excitement and sickness? Yes it is true, this week consisted of (throughout the whole camp not just my cabin) 2 broken legs, a few sprains, and a million feavers and colds. Though having sick kids is not something that anyone enjoys, its nice to have one person off your hands for a few hours. I only had one girl with a temp, though I had many with scrapes and cuts and such. I also was quite sick for a couple days yet was only able to get a couple hours extra sleep at that time.

Ok so enough with the sucky stuff...this week of girls was a blessing. They had no problems, not many annoying questions, not many complaints, and very good when it came to listening......most of the time. The past weeks before this one were filled with girls who would not listen to a word I said...which was extremely hard. Thankfully God gave me a break from that. These girls were also quite mature and enjoyed doing stuff on their own. though they were flirty and jonas brothers crazy, I was still able to take them away from temptation. And the games.....thy actually liked playing them! I was very excited.

I was filled with exhaustion though as I worked through trying to break the ice and get my words into these girls hearts and get them to respond. They really were not to interested in the learning aspect of camp. It was quite frustrating as I have felt that I have not been able to pour into any of my girls much. I am struggling with the idea that I am not doing a good job as a sr counselor because I do not know how to speak words from God to these girls that I have been given. Its a huge burden and is causing me a lot of pain at the moment. Yet I ask for prayer, I do not feel the support that I am needing to fight this. It sucks. I feel as though its time for me to have someone else with me again in order to fully pour into these campers. I once again am alone. Though I love being alone, I dont feel as though I have much to offer these girls spiritually or physically. I can only keep on praying that God will show me why I am here. It's been hard.

I hope that next week will go even better than this week did, yet I do not know if that will happen. Only God knows. As for me now...I must rest and gain the strength and energy for another week alone.