Jr Hi #2

What a week...full of fun and smiles and excitement and sickness? Yes it is true, this week consisted of (throughout the whole camp not just my cabin) 2 broken legs, a few sprains, and a million feavers and colds. Though having sick kids is not something that anyone enjoys, its nice to have one person off your hands for a few hours. I only had one girl with a temp, though I had many with scrapes and cuts and such. I also was quite sick for a couple days yet was only able to get a couple hours extra sleep at that time.

Ok so enough with the sucky stuff...this week of girls was a blessing. They had no problems, not many annoying questions, not many complaints, and very good when it came to listening......most of the time. The past weeks before this one were filled with girls who would not listen to a word I said...which was extremely hard. Thankfully God gave me a break from that. These girls were also quite mature and enjoyed doing stuff on their own. though they were flirty and jonas brothers crazy, I was still able to take them away from temptation. And the games.....thy actually liked playing them! I was very excited.

I was filled with exhaustion though as I worked through trying to break the ice and get my words into these girls hearts and get them to respond. They really were not to interested in the learning aspect of camp. It was quite frustrating as I have felt that I have not been able to pour into any of my girls much. I am struggling with the idea that I am not doing a good job as a sr counselor because I do not know how to speak words from God to these girls that I have been given. Its a huge burden and is causing me a lot of pain at the moment. Yet I ask for prayer, I do not feel the support that I am needing to fight this. It sucks. I feel as though its time for me to have someone else with me again in order to fully pour into these campers. I once again am alone. Though I love being alone, I dont feel as though I have much to offer these girls spiritually or physically. I can only keep on praying that God will show me why I am here. It's been hard.

I hope that next week will go even better than this week did, yet I do not know if that will happen. Only God knows. As for me now...I must rest and gain the strength and energy for another week alone.

Jr's #1 and #2

Oh man.....where do I even begin. Well lets begin right now. I am sitting in the staff lounge trying to type with a pulled tendon arm hahahaha. that's only a small struggle of the week.

God has a sense of humor as he not only gave me one hard week alone, but two. Jr's are tough man! And not tough in the sense that they are brave but tough in the sence that they test your ability of EVERYTHING from biblical knowledge to physical strength. The idea of counseling jr's along was scary, actually doing it was even worse. Though I will say, it was a really good experience....that was just the first week.

The second week of jr's I had a co with me named allana. The week was easier in the sence that I had help, yet harder in the sence that I was quite sick and my co and I did not get along. We did not see eye to eye on many things at all, and the prospect of working together and having communication was very limited. Though both weeks the girls would cuddle up to me and to allana the second week, we were both exhausted by the end of it and ready for the jr hi's to come back. 

Though I could go on forever about how the 2 weeks were and what happened, I wont take up the whole blog. My skills as a sr counselor were tested by these jr's and I am sure that I failed emensly. Hahaha. but hey, thhats bound to happen once and a while. I did however get to help a girl on her journey with christ and giude her to recomitting. which for me was a first ad a great experience. I pray for many more experiences like that this summer...but for now, it's time to go wake my campers up.